Saturday, December 30, 2006

need some opinions.

i received an email from my army unit requesting 100 volunteers to go to germany or alaska from June '07-'08. i'm looking at germany...i can't handle the cold well, sorry alaska. i really don't know if i should volunteer. i always said if theres one thing i wanted to do while i was in the army, was get stationed in germany. it's free living in germany and i'd be able to travel around europe for basically nothing. thats awesome. but but's another year. and trust me, i know a year goes by so fast but its a whole year...kind of long. i mean this past year i've gone to college and just fucked around. so why not pack up my bags again? i guess i'm just scared to leave my family...if you've read any of this blog, you know what happened when i left last time. but if i do go, i could possible get out of going to iraq again...however, i could go to germany and right when i get back they could send me to iraq (and then thats two years away from home/my family)...or i could do a few months in germany and then be told, hey guess what? you're going to finish your tour in iraq. goddamn the army is a pain in my ass. anyways, the email said we'd be trained in "law and order". i'm not 100% sure what the means but we'd be working with the military police. haha watch it be gate guard or some bullshit. wouldn't surprise me. ohh i don't know. all this gives me such a headache. heres a word of advice...never join the army when you're 17.

so what do you guys think? just stay where i am and see what happens? but i feel like if i sit and wait, i'm going to get fucked. i use to do volunteer work at a VA hospital and all the army guys use to tell me, "never volunteer for anything." maybe i should just listen to them.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Thursday, December 07, 2006

2004 Election.

It was right around election time…Bush vs. Kerry, any kid in the Army with some sense wanted Kerry to win even if they didn’t like him. Everyone in my unit was given an absentee ballot and told to vote. My friends and I all voted for Kerry. I personally didn’t care for him but who was I going to vote for? Some asshole who takes 10 minutes to spit out a sentence and wanted to send me to war? No thank you. We held onto our ballots for about a week or so. We thought the higher ups would collect them and mail them out as a unit. We were wrong. After training one night, we were all watching Black Hawk Down and one of our Sergeant Majors came in and asked, “Did you mail in your ballots? Did you vote?”. A bunch of us sat there confused…some of us even had the ballots in our pockets…but we were too late. The Sergeant Major told us they had to be in the mail that afternoon. Do you know what that’s like? The whole time I was thinking…this ballot is my ticket out of war…Kerry just needs to win…maybe we won’t get sent over or if we do maybe we’ll leave early. But no…I was late…a lot of us were. Our hope was thrown out the window. We ripped up the ballots and prayed America would be smart enough not to reelect Bush. I guess they weren’t.


I'm going to be posting some new things I've written. They weren't in my initial "My AmericanIraq Life"...but things i just remembered, some are just bullshit stories, how it was coming home...and so on.

does anyone have questions? comments? fuck, say something!

Life After War: Colby Buzzell.

interview and awesome music! check it out!

RA2.6: Life After War: Colby Buzzell, Killing Time in Iraq

there and back.

feelings towards going to iraq...

“I bet there's rich folk eatin' in a fancy dining car.
They're probably drinkin' coffee and smokin' big cigars,
But I know I had it comin', I know I can't be free,
But those people keep a movin', and that's what tortures me.”

“Folsom Prison Blues”, Johnny Cash.

feelings towards being home...

"Certainly there is no hunting like the hunting of man and those who have hunted armed men long enough and liked it, never really care for anything else thereafter. You will meet them doing various things with resolve, but their interest rarely holds because after the other thing ordinary life is as flat as the taste of wine when the taste buds have been burned off your tongue."

Ernest Hemingway